I’m Just Carrying It

In this Heat You Have to Lay in the Shadows

What is left

after watching you transition

to the bottom

of the ocean?

After all this work we’re back

to the beginning.

enmeshed,

ground to bits,

vacuum packed

clawed through,

and harvested.

Your hidden stash

is more than

Just bottles

It's your bioluminescence

trail folding

time-Katie Rizzo

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Paraphrased quotes this week that have rocked my world:

Brené Brown - Being in the public eye is like becoming a screen for people to project their own “stuff” on.

Pema Chödrön - Patience is found in the practice of being uncomfortable.

Nadia Bolz-Weber - I need help … to remember that there is a bigger, truer story than the one I am being sold every day of my life

Anne Karber - No one should have to defend themselves from your energy

YouRowKelsey - It’ll be good to start surfing (when reflecting on the 14 foot waves headed her way as she rows solo from the US to Hawaii).

Here’s where she is today -

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Max came home.

That is a perfect sentence.

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I’ve been thinking about how we carve our personalities on the teeth of our siblings, significant others, and parents. Actually, how all our relationships push and pull us all. Who are we, if not in relation to others?

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Max found some evidence of Nicholas’s addiction here at our condo in Mexico. A stash that would have forced our hand with Nicholas, but now it just brings grief.

Grief and longing.

It’s an echo - I was here. I was here.

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We are hungry for him.

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Maybe I could add the following quote to my list above -